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Being Ordinary Sucks
I’m sorry it’s been a few days since I’ve posted. I’ve been pretty hard on myself lately. I’ve just been so negative and I didn’t want to post. My blog is about thinking positively to make myself a better person. This week has been so counter-productive. I don’t want to bore you with the details, but I think I’m better now. I hope I am anyways. I’ve just been so anxious lately. I tried to put my anxiety to good use and write some of my book. I wrote a bit of it, but the anxiety made it too hard to concentrate. But like I said, I’m better now.
Now I’m focusing on my school work and my book I guess. It’s hard to write now because I have so many ideas and what I want to write, but as soon as I get the Word Document on my computer my mind is a total blank. It confuses me. Maybe I’m not writing because deep down I’m scared shitless of writing this book. In my 20 years, I’ve noticed that the things we want to most are the things we’re most afraid of. People want to be loved, but are afraid of commitment or getting hurt. People want greatness but are afraid of the work they need to put in. As for me, I’m afraid of failure. I’m afraid of putting my all in something that won’t be successful. I want to get over this though. I need to. I don’t want to be ordinary. Ordinary people are afraid. It’s the exceptional fearless people who succeed.To me, the worst thing in life is to be ordinary…I think I’ve seen American Beauty one too many times. Anyways, that’s my piece, my spiel, my words of non-wisdom. And as for now, I remain ordinary.
~Inspiration Daily~
If all these people can put together this dance, anything is possible.
As an avid Mad Men fan, I was re-watching some of the episodes last week to get excited for the premiere. Then there was a quote that really struck me. It was said by Pete in the first season. He was complaining about wanting everything good to happen for him at once. I couldn’t help but relate. The worst part is that Pete is considered ‘the weasel’ of the show, especially first season. I know that he does some pretty bad shit, but so does everyone else on the show. Don cheats on his wife all the time and he just seems to get stuff without working too hard for it.
It doesn’t make sense to me how the viewer can be totally enamored with Don and completely hate Pete. Pete doesn’t cheat on his wife as much as Don and he got his position through who he knew, but Don got his job by lying (watch season 4). I think it’s sad because in a way, everyone can relate to Pete. We all want good things to happen for us and will do anything we can to get there. Does that make us bad people? How can we justify living in a world where some people get everything they want and others don’t? Where’s the fairness in that?
This might be random thoughts from a Pete fan but I thought it was important to post because of what this blog is about. What do you all think? Sure Pete is a little annoying sometimes, but when pushed and in pursuit of getting what you want, wouldn’t you do whatever it takes to get it? The sad reality is that out of everyone on the show, everyone can relate with Pete in one way or another. Most people don’t have the balls to admit that.
Trying Your Hardest Isn’t Enough Sometimes
Have you ever had one of those weeks where you already know its going to suck? I feel like that week for me is going to be this one. I already ruined any hope of getting an editor position next year and last night another upsetting thing happened. I told you about my internship with the fashion blog…anyways I story I was working on for days isn’t being published. When I read that email it felt like a big punch in the gut. It’s been hard for me to adjust to my new blog. I still feel like I’m learning. After reading that email, I was nervous they were going to let me go. I know I was overreacting, but at that very moment it just felt like the end of the world to me. I used that fashion blog and the things I was doing as a way to ease myself out of my college newspaper. If I get cut from this blog then I have nothing basically.
I think what hurts the most is that I put so much effort into this piece. Have you ever tried something so hard and then failed at it? I hate that feeling. The worst is that my family and friends know about this blog. I usually don’t like sharing what I do because of my fears of failing. What if I get fired? Then everyone will know I fucked up, that I wasn’t good enough. It will be humiliating. People will feel sorry for me and I hate when people feel sorry for me. I’m just going to have to wow them even more for my next piece. I can’t lose this opportunity. I won’t let myself.
~Inspiration Daily~
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